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3/16/09 8:31 pm

My parents are  fighting over money.
My father's business bank acount just got seized by the irs.
I have to sell my mercedes to help with money.
Money has never been so tight that I actually have to look at the price of food/beverages I pick out when we're at the grocery store.
I'm still holding onto my boyfriend Shane. Over the weekend we had a huge fight but I think we're okay now. Again.
My phone got taken away and I think we're going to lose the internet pretty soon.
I can barely wait for weds because I get to be with Shane for an hour. It never feels like enough but at least it's something.
I miss him so much.
I wish I could be with him right now.
My recent favorite songs are Something - Escape the Fate and The Flood - Escape the Fate.
I feel so deprived without my phone. I guess i'll try to survive.

Writer's Block: Priorities

What quality do you think is most important in a significant other?
Honesty

3/8/09 11:09 pm

I've just realized that whenever i'm in a relationship my favorite phrase is, "He treats me like a princess"
Which makes me want to know how is a princess really treated? haha

Writer's Block: Deal or No Deal

What's on your list of dealbreakers when it comes to romantic relationships?
Dealbreakers:

  • Still inlove with past lovers
  • Has previously cheated
  • Had promiscuous tendencies
  • Shorter than 5'5"
  • Excessive drug abuse
  • Excessive alcohol abuse
  • Overly controlling
  • Obsessive
  • Doesn't get along with parents [Depends on how bad it is]
  • Can't get along with my friends
  • No trust
  • Doesn't want to do anything but sit around

Writer's Block: Miss Manners

What recently developed technology—cell phones, wi-fi, laptops, handheld gaming devices, etc.—do you think has had the worst influence on how people behave in public?
I would say cellphones.
My reasoning: 
Because people talk on their phones rather obnoxiously in public, stand in line for something only to get up to order and have whoever is trying to take their order hold on so that they can go on with their phone conversation, talk on the phone while driving and causing a crash etc., if someone is talking on the phone and someone else tries to ask or talk to them they often become snappy and rude to the person who's trying to talk to them while they're on the phone. etc.

3/8/09 6:40 pm

I just got home from camping an hour or two ago.
I've been surfing the web and looking over old emails and old favorites I have.
While I was sorting through things I remembered having a livejournal acount and decided I should get on and look over what my past posts looked like.
Skimming over my last post made me smile a tad and here's why:

I'm no longer taking a french class. I had to switch schools and the one I was transferred to doesn't offer french
but only spanish. C'est pas terrible.

I never got around to selling my video game consoles and recently I've begun playing them more often.. haha.

I tried being healthy. I failed. Got drunk, got high and gained five pounds and I had a blast doing it.

My aunt sharon is dating her recently divorced husband now.

As of Jan 06 of 2009 I have been dating a man named Shane.. which happens to be the same name of my aunt sharon's divorced husband of which she's now dating.. Hmm..

There's a seven year difference between Shane and I. [him being older]
I began texting him early October.
I met him in person on New Years.
Our relationship has been very rocky and we've definately already had a lot of ups and downs but I care about him sincerely.
He may be a jerk from time to time but he never has anything bad to say about me directly.. as of yet hah :/. When we're arguing he complains to
his roommate Micah but other than that when he's talking about me to anyone else he makes me out to be perfect and that I should be walking on water.
Shane shares a house with three other people, Micah being one of them.
I find myself thinking about Shane a great deal of the time.
I even dream about him lots which is a new thing for me; dreaming about the one i'm with.

Writer's Block: Checklist for Eternity

If you could live forever how would you spend your time?
First I'd learn as many languages I could. 
I would then travel the world and learn things as I go.
Learning would be the main thing.

Writer's Block: The Meaning of Love

What does love mean to you, and why? Have you always felt this way?
 Love to me is a strong feeling that can come and go. I think to be loved, your someone needs to love you for your good and bad days. Especially your bad ones. 
I havn't always felt this way.. my opinion on it actually changes frequently.

Writer's Block: Your Username

Why did you choose your user name? Is there any special meaning or story behind it?
 At first glance my user name may be repulsive or offensive.
 Fuckdarling.
Explaining my name, i'd start out with dissecting it.
The 'Fuck' is to be taken as 'Fuck it' or 'Fuck <insert person's name>' No sexual reference meant here.
The 'Darling' is my last name.
There is no special story but it's my personal way of saying I am who I am. I define who I am. Not you or anyone else.

Writer's Block: Your First Record

What was the first music album you ever bought or owned? Do you still listen to it or have you moved on?
I was six years old when I got my first cd.
It was the Spice Girls. 
I still listen to it.